I like being alone, but I hate the feeling of being lonely.
When you’re alone, you have time for yourself. Your thoughts finally catch up to you. You set your mind on things and everything is just clearer. Nothing’s bothering you and everything just feels right for once.
When you feel lonely, you feel as if no one’s there for you. It feels like no one understands you or is willing to listen. It feels like you’re screaming in a crowded room, but yet not one person looks up.
Looking back upon my career as a Marine, I really wish I just had that one mentor to sit me down and guide me in the right direction of the difficulties that I would face… not just as an inexperienced Junior Marine, but as a woman. My Drill Instructors touched base on all things to expect, once I hit the fleet, but you’re singing a whole different tune once they stop holding your hand after graduation. I had a dream to make a difference, to reach out and change just one person’s life whether it be as a SNCO or a Hat. My dreams were cut short through my Med Board, but it does not mean that I cannot share my experience or stories.
(Trigger Warning/Long Post)
A must read for female marines.